I am not giving up but I am just tired of everything..

Ya, ALLAH! 
You hear my words, 
You behold my situation, 
You know what is open and what is hidden within me; 
nothing is hidden from You. 
It is me alone who is in need, 
a humble seeker of Your forgiveness ~ then help me to remember that YOUR love is greater than my disappointments and YOUR plans are better than my dreams.

My heart keeps telling myself that this is a test, la tahzan, that there's a reason ALLAH has ordained things to turn out this way. Probably ALLAH is testing me if I am amongst the grateful. Probably ALLAH knows I can take it and this test will just make me stronger. 

I'd been holding it in. I didn't wanna shed a tear. But...sometime, i'm too weak.. hepls me Ya ALLAH ~ show me the way i should choose to be a better person, please wipes my tears.