Expressing my feeling.

It was a very long time not updating my blog. I am in Putrajaya Persint 11 library, where it was located in Pusat Kejiranan Putrajaya. Wow, so hardworking Siti! Hurm, am I? No, first of all, I am mainly not here for a study, I feels like I need some times to recover myself. I am more comfortable here. Yes! I am more comfortable in a silent quiet place, where there is no people, other than me and my soul. As scared as it is, I am telling you honestly that my favorite place is library, where I was surrounding with books, aircond, and silence. The only place where I can rest, peacefully, thinking about my unforgettable past experience, what I am going to do in my future, and the present. I just need some privacy because these past months have been too much for me and I couldn't find the time to rest my brain. As a girl, I do love shopping, hangout, having fun, and all. But who doesn't rest at all? My brain have been working too much and I ne
ed them to rest. I do really think that I need the time for me, at least to be alone, for awhile. Then why don't you rest at your room? More private. No, I don't have my own room, nah, but its okay. I don't really care as long as I have myself. You have no idea of how I am so in love with myself. I like to feed myself with everything I love, do whatever I want. Sometimes, that's why I don't like following the rules. Since I was a kid, thats what I do, my childhood wasn't that fun as you all, other than in my japanese school life, because I was always surrounded my wonderful people, with compliments of how smart I am from friends and teacher, and you can see how hyper and happy kid I was. However, after I reached my home, I started to do everything alone, by myself, without expressing my feeling to others, but myself. I cry by myself, happy by myself, and all by myself. So, its two different personalities of me. You may look at me as a happy go lucky girl, always smile and laugh. And I was different person soon I reached home, and it was all because my parents were busy with their works and I have no one to talk to. As a kid, I like to share my thoughts and feeling with others, but then I will end up writing in a piece of paper, more like my unorganized diary.  I wanted to share my top highest grade in class, how teacher complimented me, who was my best friend in first grade class and it was just no one to care. My parents was a hardworking successful parents and they have so much to deal with, and I don't blame my parents for that. I inherited their blood for being hardworking, creative, and all the greatest things just like them. I am so thankful for that. Thanks for everything mom, dad, grandma, grandpa. I will be twenty this September and I just can't wait for that! So much fun in life that I haven't discover yet. And I will be doing that with a lot of smile and fun <3